Honestly, even though I’ve been living in Korea for two years, my Korean hasn’t improved at the speed that I expected. I expected to be semi-fluent after two years, you know? I’m not. I’ve placed a lot of unrealistic expectations on my Korean and compared myself to other people which is not ideal. I’m essentially teaching myself the language and even though it is extremely difficult and I’m not the best at encouraging myself, I’m still plugging at it.
Essentially, I’m at the level where I can hold mini-conversations with people, but my grammar is poor and if I’m nervous, I completely blank on all the Korean I know. So, needless to say, I’m not that confident in my Korean. But even though I’m not confident, I still do things like join a Korean competition with native speakers and throw myself in highly taxing Korean-only situations because somehow I’m still clinging to the hope that I’ll get better one day. 🙄🙄
So, when one of my friends asked if I could join one of their game shows for the GFN radio station, I agreed. I don’t know why. Maybe I thought I could do better than I did, maybe I just thought it’d be fun. Needless to say, it didn’t go according to plan. Feel free to watch me happily fail at this game.
I had never played any of the games they told us about until that day, so when I look confused, I am genuinely confused. Even though I’m slightly embarrassed by this video because it shows my failing points in Korean, it was actually pretty fun to do. I think I will study more and do my best should another opportunity arise. It has become my motivator.
So if you are currently struggling with learning a language, or developing a new skill, don’t be like me. Don’t compare yourself to others and beat yourself up when you fail. Just pick yourself up, take a deep breath, and keep trying. I’m growing and I’m trying to remind myself that every day.
Until next time,
See ya around, friend~